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June 6th, 2005
12:16 am - The Good Life
It's time I got back, it's time I got back, and I don't even know how I got off the track. I wanna go back yeaaaaah.
Wow. It's been a month or so, right? Yeah. Ummm. Lots and lots of shit has gone down in these past few weeks since I last updated.
Emily has flat-out told me that she wants me back. I am tempted to get back with her because of how much history we have, and how good things once were. However, she is still exhibiting behaviors that I really...really dislike about her. But it's peculiar. My opinion of her changes about as quickly as she does. Which is really fucking quickly.
Sarah and I aren't dating anymore. Technically, we're on a 'break'. I feel bad, because I was the one who suggested it, and a big part of it was because Emily decided she wanted me back. I am a bastard, I know. But Sarah doesn't seem to be all that upset about it. We never really 'connected' that much, anyway. I don't know if our 'break' will ever be over, honestly. She's cool and fun and things, but it's really hard to get past polite conversation with her and to get at her "innards". And I don't mean her literal...intestines. That would be gross.
Also, as if the situation weren't screwy enough already...another. fucking. plot. twist.
GOD MY LIFE IS SO SOAPRATIC.
Anyway, my good buddy TEICH dumped his girlfriend.His girlfriend was really sad about it. I sensibly suggested to her that she get over it. And then she decided she wanted me.
Seems like maybe she might be doing this to get back at Teich at first glance, but she isn't telling Teich any of this stuff. And if jealously were the motive, she would be relating to him like, everything. Right?
I think so. Or maybe I'm just a pawn. But I would be the pawn of a really hot chick, so I'm not complaining.
The best thing for me to do right now, methinks, would be to just stop dating. Relationships have proven to be nothing but stress for me. And now I've got TWO CHICKS wanting me, which is so fucking weird. I don't get it at all. Look at my picture! Listen to me talk! Would you date this fucktard? Hell no you wouldn't.
Something weird is going on, man. SOMETHING WEIRD.
I need to just stop with this relationship bullshit, I think. Wait until something real and meaningful comes along, and quit with this awkward, tangled, teenage melodrama stupidity.
(On a side note, it's interesting how every girl I've ever dated/been interested in has been close to one of my friends. I've dated: my friend's sister and my other friend's ex. And now yet another friend's (teich's) ex girlfriend has said that she would like to date me. I can't meet girls on my own.) :-/
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07:39 pm - Safety and Relief
It's summer. We just got out of school last Friday, and so today is the first non-weekend day off from school I've had in a long time. It's nice. Because now I'm pretty much free to do whatever the hell I want, whenever I want to do it. My job is a minor annoyance, as I now only work something like 12 hours a week.
I'd nearly forgotten how fun it is to stay up all night on a caffeine high. God, I love summer so hardcore.
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